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Numzane is actually cool fucknuts



Ok yeah i gave him a lotta shit TOO, BUT thats his own fault by going public as Admin, thoo thats my opinion they stay on the background.



Shit happens.



Numzane is my book is cool and from my opinion now (afterwards) i am 99% convinced a lot of the shit he was accused of , wasnt even his doing or out of his control.



Not saying hes completely innocent, tho as with EVERYTHING on this website, including myself take things over the internet a liittle too personal



Hence why i barely respond to shit because i don't care......... you think, although i do sleep wonderful at night, i couldn't help noticing that i caught myself today having a meltdown.... no not a real one .... a virtual one.. lol



As i was happily ignoring therogue as i usually do with wankers i could not help myself of the need to engage conversation, as he was rather quiet for his usual behaviore i decided to put on the naughty shoes and provoke him, as expected he responded immediately in fashion as we all know therogue, only what rogue says and thinks is right everybody else is wrong.



Funny note is that nobody on the rather packed room under these circumstances and seemingly nobody comments on rouge's blogs besides the people that are as idiotic as himself, he doesn't realize with his famous explain one subject in way to many words posts that he himself is responsible for the ongoing drama, by blogging constantly multiple times a day massive stories on hate and drama.



What one does not realize is that no response will end such things fast, now you are gonna say heyy cybie hold on there you are being hypocritical now you are responding too with this blog, in a way this is true but i see this different besides an occasional specific targeted ban and some ranting in a blog once a moth is totally different in my opinion then obsessing over it daily.



I always love how people say i do not care, yet by the massive response, the NEED to impose your viewpoint upon others, WITHOUT even looking objectively to themselves and seeing they are pointing out to flaws they all themselves are guilty off, this includes me, with the exception i like to believe that i know i make mistakes are not always right, BUT, if you consider in the end ALLL of this considers purely about receiving attention, it is clear that no matter who you are, you contribute to and sustain the hate drama by your constant blogging and videos about those whom are not to your likings.



No me for example really most of the time does not care, as i do not generate hate campains, i like to call people out for things they claim oh yes definatly, but lets take take copypastefag for example, i hardly write blogs once in a while i wrote a couple and get it out of my system instead of having it impact my life on a daily basis.



The ComputerSolutions boy had declared to several people he would hunt me down put a bounty on my head and kill me, these are heavy statements, while i called copypastefag a lot of names i never had the intention or desire to murder this nobody LOL, tho i write about this fact ONE damn blog and the whole world comes after Cybie.



While i never denied or have tried to hide the fact i do sometimes ban people or shit like that, it seems to become easy for people to say that everything that is happening is the fault of one person, it is similar to the innocent bystander effect, where an accident occurs 50 people are standing in a circle how someone bleeds to death nobody picks up a phone to call an ambulance because they are scared or think oh someone already made the call.



Might input of group pressure the need to feel accepted and just follow blindly or as like the media, if they or enough people say something you start to believe it.




A big side effect of being fucked up by weed in a good way, is that i drift off fast and like to make points into great detail the whole point of the story before i decided to mindfuck certain goons is that numzane is cool, from my recent experiences i honestly believe i had a lot of things wrong about him, and ill say he didn't make all the right decisions but shit happens, but a lot of things where said and done



It tells you things however, this is some people never change, a lot of the times things are not what they appear to be, and sometimes you go after the wrong people just because they are the primary association with that what you truly resent, funny enough in a lot of cases you will find its not always the other that is the true cause sometimes it is yourself, the desire to want something so badly you start to believe it.



The thing is for one i am aware of the fact i am sort of "guilty" of certain things or call it "responsible", no that is not true, yes i did make it available however the choice was never mine to make to NOT use it.



So many people seem to complain about the banning for example, but most of them are guilty of using it themselves, but once they feel the other side of it, and trust me i have for the wrong reasons, it no longer is fun, BINGO.



To get pack to the main subject, all of you are sustaining the drama and hate by constantly digging up old cows out the water and have lost the control of the ability to let certain things go and ignore it.



There is NO PROBLEM to speak your mind there is freedom of speech

Tho there is a great difference on brining up the same subjects over and over, until the only goal is to insult each other or try to e-hurt someone.



E-hurt is a fascinating subject, taking in consideration that if you THINK about something or ACTUALLY experience something it involves the exact same chemical processes in the brain, digital words as you may call it can have just as great an impact as spoken words, where spoken works and close contact includes visual senses subconscious senses and intonation, the information in the brain is processed the same way.



As behind every keyboard is a human being the bridge between "real life" and "virtual life" suddenly becomes very small




The whole key in this process is to be able to separate life from online life, while for me there is NO difference between online, offline, noline whatever life is life for each individual, yet a lot of people due to society or personal choice are isolated, or do not have massive contacts, this is where the "online virtual life" is a great substitute, thew danger of the "internet" however is the low threshold of access and "anonymity" which makes it easier to loose your control and say things you would not dare or are not true to a person in "real life".



One with a low self esteem might find comfort in profiling himself as some one that is "better", as Morpheus put it, it is the mental projection of your digital self, the way you would like to see yourself.



Even worse is when people use this as an outlet for frustration to obtain satisfaction in taking certain actions which do not always benefit the greater good and innocent people receive punishment.



A great example is myself, I was mad at LV for banning me without notice and VALID reason, in ALL this time the "stuff is going on" not ONCE has anyone of LV ever contacted me, said a word to me, while i contacted them many times.



People where being interrogated Nazi style about me and where mistreated merely because they associated with me, i think these are NAZI style practices and as in the world war against Hitler people made great sacrifices to bring such regime down.



Now let me stop myself right there, those are strong words, but believe me, i do not see myself as the savoir of LV not do i want to MONTHS ago my intention was to get changes done, imagine no one had ever made you aware of the things currently possible, NOT that this would have changed LV's future because with to without hacks/script whatever you call them, this site was doomed the scripts only accelerated the inevitable.



In a lot of instances you will discover that the real problem you have with someone is that you are probably "similar" in certain thinkings and or hobbies for example and jealousy or simple miscommunication start what people might refer to as the "internet flame war".



Even myself and everyone else are guilty sometimes of some if not all, learning from and adapting to is what you should gain from these experiences.



Before 2005, I, Cybie, had never experienced the "video chat phenomenon", as i liked to sometimes make videos on youtube one day i received this comment from jiggy with ciggy to checkout livevideo, i passed i was not interested, tho eventually my curiosity was triggered and i was persuaded to join the site.



This website was LiveVideo.com, it was fantastic, multiple people from all over the world, all kind of nationalities new experiences and learnings.



One big part that really stood out to me was "drama" while i successfully stayed "out of it" for a long time, i caught myself doing things i swore i would not.


While i think my mind games worked a lot better as most people have always and now even more see me as the LOL CAUSE OF EVERYTHING they see me everywhere means you get to "them", no matter who you are you myself, anyone is not immune to this phenomenon, however some do take it literary at some point.



How you deal with all this is the important part, as mentioned before on the internet you van be anyone you want, and well my character cybie is somewhat extreme, always asks girls to marry him, but be reasonable doesn't ANYONE see trough that, what idiot in its right might will either accept or take a marriage request seriously from a person you met 30 seconds ago lol...???



When cybie turns off the pc, he is no longer cybie, what people tell to, or think of cybie is completely irrelevant to the person behind cybie, sure to a certain point they are the same, however if someone dies or kills in a movie does not mean he kills in real life, it is the low threshold.


I believe or hope at least is that i know the difference between then, i act and out myself extreme i expect and accept extreme reactions, its fun.
however i know what is real and what not.



I am going to share one last story before i wrap it up.



One day i see this blog titled something cybie stop deleting me, as i looked at the username i payed little attention and gave it a quick glance, reason for this was i was known with this user, and i was pretty sure this user would know i would not do that (at that point in time).



So as a day passes by, i meet this person and the blog is mentioned, and i said haha funny, tho what turned out, it was no joke.



This alleged by me deleted user had spoken spoken with a LIVE VIDEO ADMINISTRATOR about the account, so i was curious and said it was really deleted??? and the reply was that according to this LV ADMIN the account was deleted in an unusual manner, and this same LV STAFF ADMIN SWORE LITERARY SWORE to the user that Yours Truly, Cybie, was behind the termination of the account.



Now at first i thought this person was joking (because I cybie cannot delete account only admins can, i explain later) however I was informed that it was really true.



First thing i explained was that IF the account was deleted by me it would be all the accounts of this user instead of only the ONE account that got deleted.



That if i could delete accounts and i wish i could, i would delete the biggest s rats on this website first and immediately, therouge, copypastefag and the entire LV staff excluding the NUMZANES, and probably a whole bunch more people.



And second that the LV ADMINS are rogue, selectively target people due to personal interest and conflicts, probably use me as an escape goat, or more likely what i believe actually themselves have no idea how this massive websites really works and how systems are integrated.



Now LiveVideo administrators tellings lies to people about stuff i seriously wish i could do, must be the lowest form of ignorance, even after plenty of times free help and solutions are offered and even provided.



I am not here to defend myself, yes i am but i am not trying to claim i am so good, and innocent, most know i NEVER have and i will not, oh yeah i made bad calls which i still regret regardless what my future actions are, they do not matter anymore they cannot be reversed.






Pointing the finger to one person is ok in my book as long as you heard my story, people make there own directions those who are really guilty are the ones that yell hard but do not do anything, those who have the means to end or solve things but let it continue regardless, where i know simply that not Everything is due to me people only glorify my name and crediting me for achievements i'm not even aware of, people who really , really know me, know better, tho many factors like group pressure the need to feel accepted and influential substances, anonimity have great impact over the thought process that release your breaks so a point you are no longer in control, they control you.



There is a LOT more things i would like to write here, but the bitch is when zoned out at one point you need a break and or get bored / forgotten things in the process you cannot be bothered to review it.



It is not bad to criticize someone i do it all the time, tho there is moderation, reason and many other factors involved, the primary one is look at yourself and know not everything you do is so perfect either.



As the LiveVideo Administration and staff will not have the balls to keep this here, this blog is also available at blogspot





Never during the time of bullshit i have felt the urge to have been part of "the community" with the exception of a few people, i felt that long ago when i first came here and is lonnnggg gone.



I am really done with this pit of hell and dis pare, in the true beginning my intentions where for good, they forced me into bad, nothing matters, my resent has faded, i have come to the conclusion that my initial thoughts years ago where right, this medium is not for me, i will still utilize this media however never again in a public form, time makes you realize no matter how strong minded you will fall pray to the "internet war machine"



I forgive each and every one of you, i do not expect any of you to forgive me, in fact for a special group i do not even have that desire, tho i still forgive them does not mean there company is appreciated and enjoyable again, you remain dead to me.




I am going to give a lot of you now exactly what they want, i am going to retreat, therogue i still welcome to track me, finish his work with the dutch authorities, i am not backing out getting scared, i encourage you in fact to finish the process, but for me IT IS OVER lv the whole video chat process, i have found this is not what i am looking for.



Fuck you all, i will be waiting at the gates of hell to hold them open for your arrival, Goodbye, you might think not, well be in for a surprise.



As my final deed or terror on livevideo i am going to mass ban cappys room Cardinal.Cappy for being a dick and closure, but to be honest cappy is in some forms like me, stubborn, funny crazy, but i truly always kinda liked em, and well like mentioned before things collide, the real reason is a lot of times a similarity shared between.

P.S

Hey you fucking bitch MadesiccLivesYetAgain, you where the reason this blog started yet u deserve nothing more then a lousy P.S. in it, STFU man before i unleash my goons and our torment upon you.



Numzane Rocks




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